So, yesterday, I received an email. Nothing abnormal about that, except for 4 things. 1) It was from an old family friend who I haven’t seen or spoken to in years, and would have no way to get the email address they sent it to, except by getting it from someone. 2) They somehow knew…
Focusing On The Gurney
What is the meaningOf all of the unknowns,And how do you findIn what direction it leans? Finding direction in a worldSo scattered and coldFilled with issues so burledIt seems insurmountable, when everythingIs bought and sold. How can you place value onIngenuity,Fantasy,Imagination,and love,When it seems as if friendly cooperation is gonefrom existence, and crushed from above?…
Arising from the corpse
Vanquished, lying in the dirt,No more energy left.Unable to give any more to his facademade of dreams, wishes, and ideals. Totally bereft,And done with the lies of his Godof times past. Arising from the corpse,She emerges at last.She cannot hide herself anymore,no matter the consequences,She is who he truly was at his core. She is…
Nurture, Nature, or Trauma?
Visceral,Empirical,Whimsical. How was I created:Nurture, Nature, or Trauma?I have tradedSo much of myself, to avoid drama. No more. It is time to even the score. No longer will I minimize myselfAnd place who I really am upon the shelf. Spending all of my energyAvoiding being me.Finding the truth in who I am,Is not quiet, like…
Mutterings and Musings of a Merry Maiden
The last 18 months have been some of the hardest, but most rewarding of my life. I realized a lot of things about myself and the world about me. Not just that I am a Bisexual Transgender Woman, that is probably the biggest one, but many other things as well. In all of the self…
Beating the Screams Out of My Dreams
Beating the screams Out of my dreams, Destroying the vision of what I have been Time to buck this trend.Where am I going, where will this lead?No idea, but going to make this world bleed Not in a violent way, but adding colour to my world of grey. Time keeps ticking on, as I re-create…
What dreams may come
This is a poem that I wrote a few weeks ago about the last year, and coming to terms that I am a Transgender Woman. Hope that you enjoy (Copyright 2019 under Creative Commons). Am I rightIn taking flight? In being true to myselfI have had to break the oldConceptions of what is trueAnd Be…
The swinging of my soul
I wrote this back in 2009 – originally posted on my DeviantArt. Like the earth floating through the atmosphereor man as he searches for the truth,the beginning of the ending,nothing is clear… What is happening now, nothing makes senseI don’t know what’s going onPlease lift the drifting, dripping fogfrom over my kind of guy,the kind…
A Retrospective Introspective
Written in 2011 – Originally posted on my DeviantArt. Working towards an ends,Alienating all of my true friends,Living with self as the most important thingMy past makes me think of Gollum and the Ring. Evil, twisted, and sadistic thinking,And that was when I wasn’t drinking! Now that I have found the way,I don’t have to…
Ergo, there go I
The start of an epic…will I get back to it? Who knows… Galaxies collide with tremendous forceCausing planets and lives to veer off course.Planes of existence shift and move,Making a grooveIn the fabric of spacetime. It has the effect of taking the grimeAnd replacing it with clean nothingness,But, I digress. The true beginning of this…